Negative energy IS GONE

My beliefs are literally of the good word and of good nature BECAUSE of my past & what i know :

"Therefore, if anyone is in christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come." 2: cor: 5:17

"Be anxious for nothing, but by prayer & supplication with thanksgiving, let all your requests be made known to god"    Philippians 4:6

"As you enter the house, greet it.   MATTHEW 10:12
And if the house is worthy, let your peace come upon it,  but if it is not worthy, let your PEACE return to YOU..  MATTHEW 10:13

"And if anyone will not receieve you or listen to your words, shake off the dust from your feet when you leave the house or town" MATTHEW 10:14






WE ARE ALL IN CHARGE OF OUR DESTINY THROUGH GOD. not other people! i like the energy and im officially keeping it because i claim it. its better than living as though it were yesterdays problems.

Im unfortunately decision indecisive

I may be like everyone else when it comes to figuring out what i want. Haha but i highly doubt it. But then again you never know. Im currently facing "do i want to leave my apt where my landlord sucks" or do i want to pack my big mess of stuff & transport it to a new location. And for my career path, I have just started to establish a business, but that stuff is pretty unpredictable considering no one has money today for a housecleaner. I almost wish i could be a famous artist and know id be fairly well off. But people cannot even afford art today. They are lucky enough if they can pay their bills ...yowch. Eh i know i could use my brain for college, but will there even be careers by the time Id even graduate. I know someone cannot tell me what to do, other than my higher power aka jesus christ ....however, sometimes like everyone else, we look to our friends or our family.....but what do we want...what do i really want? Its in my heart and all of our hearts. No distractions. How can i make a decision when im constantly in a cluster. hehe. IM STILL indecisive about my decision to post this....we will see if i make the decision i need not only with posting this but in life!   wish me luck!

Self disciplining it with Facebook

Has anyone ever thought, "wow I've been on facebook way too long today" or "why am i Staring at this persons FB for so long because i know it feels kind of creepy" or Has anyone ever felt destroyed after seeing a supposed significant others pictures with unnecessary feelings of jealousy. I think we all jump to conclusions of some sort. However, as cool and convenient as FB may seem, It may be more stressful and addicting. Might I add, in my opinion, way too time consuming. With all the pictures and life i have, esp being 25 years old, this is really hard,;But i made a vow the other day that I am staying off fb for at least a month. The internet is tough to go on without thinking about it, But you know what: I get alot more done & its a test; A test for my self control. SELF CONTROL I never had much of a year ago. We all need more of that today. Thank you facebook BUT for now no thank you!

People come into our lives for a reason

People have been in and out of my life since i can remember. I cannot say it was much of what I did, but then again how can I even make such a statement. Whos to say im better. I just know that in life, you gain teachers more than you gain starry diamond friends.Without knowing it, they may even become your trusted friends or lovers. And sometimes just sometimes disappointedly enough, they come for a brief time and then they just leave .And you never thought it would happen because it just felt meant to be. you could compare it to high school if you wanted. Every relationship ive had, esp with guys have only helped me become stronger. I never knew what heartbreak really really was up until 2 years ago & now I know my heart cannot break again. My teacher taught me well, but sometimes it may not be love, just a lesson, A lesson well learned.

Amen.

Triple Crummy Wammy

Whats next for the month? I have one of the best immune systems around. Why do i keep getting all of these weird physical sicknesses LIKE poison ivy, red eye & now chiggers. Apparently that is rare. I was freaking out thinking they were fleas. But hey its pretty disturbing to know i have a red creepy bug swimming in my legs & they are frantically biting me slowly but surely. At least they will be dead in a week. too bad they arent just like yellow jackets. Those just sting for a second and then die. This crap feels like poison ivy. However, its a little worse. It throbs and itches like no other. At least it goes in spurts. Its extremely frustrating but not contagious or anything thank god.  What am i being told? its rather nuts  3 things in the course of a month. Nature must really be attracted to me . the wrong kind though YUCK. damn you poison ivy, pollen & creepy crawlers.

my spiritual realm has finally struck me well

The joy i have found just by eliminating the excess junk & toxins is splendid indeed. I didnt know how easy life could be until now. My prayers are finally paying off. 25 is a good year. I could still enjoy my youth which hopefully lasts forever. No person or thing could ever take that away from me. I just finished the book "she said yes". My sister had been begging me to read it forever. it was such an easy inspirational read. And it was a tragic book based on the columbine shooting. It touched the nations. I am so thrilled i actually read it Because it forced tears out of my eyes. When you do not cry, to yourself you lie. Everyone has emotions & we need to let them out for real. this quote i just quoted; and the sentence may not make sense. However, I just finished this entire book along with a documentary that truly touched my sensitive heart. if no one reads this its ok. I know one person who will. Thank god for life. thats all i can say & thanks for all the inspirational people in the world who use their voices.

Stop messing with me Phone cmpy

I really wish i knew all the answers sometimes. However, i do not. Only god knows! Literally. Everytime i use my phone, theres a random dial. No one can help. The phone cmpy is blaming the fact that i own a cordless & insisted i buy a plug in. No wonder everyone has cell phones nowadays. If i could afford one, Id have one right now. Well not necessarily true. I dont like being bothered and they distract me LOL. i swear i will not get texting once i get a phone. anyway, we arent in the days of interuppted phone lines. Remember when you could actually hear conversations lol. well random dials and clicks are pretty much the same thing except at least there was more humor in hearing who cindy liked or whatnot.Also people and phone cmpys were willing to help more. Enjoy the day. I need to keep moving. Later

Hunter Mountain Jam

Hunter mountian Jam (8th annual one) was the first adult festival i have been to! by far it was the best. No offense mom or dad. The bluegrass festivals were awesome as a kid 3 or 4 years in a row. I still miss them (lugging wagons up and down huge hills ...oh and the iccccccccce truck..i was fortunate enough to have spoken on that darn thing (intercom lol) anyway thanks jon for making everything epic..i know it was a neverending story & walmart killed us financially but hey so did u buying the weekend tkts..ill always appreciate it ...xoxo ....ill write later when i have more time...this will be a long blog! tooo be continued......

Kc*

Local Court Screwed me

Im sorry(actually not at this moment in time) but people are friggin A-holes. Im so angered right now. I got 20 bucks in the bank currently & i lost some of my previous balance to a judge who gave me advice to pay online. The online site is for travelers; namely out of staters. I could have walked . it would have taken me just my feet. I wouldnt have been even wasting an inkling of gas! 17 dollar convenience fee my friggin ass! How bout inconvenience all the way!


*KC*

Disorderly Conduct

I try and look at things in a positive light because if I do not, I'll live in fear forever. I'm marked disabled by NYS, and I've struggled daily since I was pretty much born. BPD and PTSD is something that most people dont take too lightly, in society that is!.However, they(regular people) tend to believe those are the crazy ones when in all actuality,they are pretty damn smart &..they(the regular ppl), are the ignorANT(ignore)ones.....(ant as in small...people are mean when they are small) SO JUST..mean people straight up suck " GREAT PEOPLE TALK ABOUT IDEAS..AVERAGE PEOPLE TALK ABOUT THINGS..SMALL PEOPLE TALK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE" -unknown......life is, unfortunately COMPLETE gossip nowadays!

Emotions

Ive cried a lot since i was young; and i've come to realize, it wasn't at all mortifying..it was oh so relieving. i really feel that tears are the best kind of release for our bodies. everyone has experienced losing a close friend, family member maybe,a divorce, a breakup, a letdown. If we keep moving because we cannot let life go on, we could suffer more than we have to. so pretty much, im thrilled to have known myself and my emotions esp right now. It takes a lot of hard work, but if you look inside and release , you will really find and then you truly would be at ease! AND oh yeah, Have no regrets because all you can do is move forward.

With God all Things are Possible

My whole life i knew something would happen. Something great that is. I knew smiling and loving other people would pay off in the long run. Besides that, I prayed and believed and envisoned it forever. At least since i was a wittle wittle kid :) ...Ive always been good at falling and getting back up...its like a kid falling off a bike one too many times. She could be traumatized & never want to risk her pain & boo boos again.MAYBE SHE WOULD NEVER LEARN?! A perfect example for me is not having the fear of dogs esp pitbulls. I was viciously attacked by one at age 9 .I even recieved stitches..I overcame it because i knew i had to. it would have effected my joy and left me a coward. There are dogs everywhere. that would be alot of the same worry over the course of so far 15 years. wow that would have sucked. Happiness lies within the beholder and through your belief system. if you believe in only yourself or whatevers in front of you all day everyday, you lose your focus. what if that were to fail..then what would you be left with? yourself! Bob marley says be happy dont worry. happiness happiness happiness. Fake a smile if you have to ...itll grow on you for sure..
the suns out. go out and be happy!